Enlightening the so called "SELF"..

I looked down on my old new side..
on the illuminating darkness which I try to hide...
I searched myself with an open mind,
I went forward but still was behind...
Met those dreams, the dreams set like dew drops over my achievements..
passed through emotions, the emotions that make my life..
searched the reasons, the reasons for my despair..the reason for that darkness..
re-established all my hopes, those hopes that are most closest to me..
And in the end, what I found was that I was missing ME....

MY LIFE...

My life came to a still..
never dreamt if i'd be like this..
when this was what meant for me, 
then why she made me like this......
She knew i was just for her happiness.
for her i put myself in every mess...
And in the end when she left me,
She gave me so many wounds to bless.....
I never forced her to stay,
that doesn't meant my feelings were to play..
and the reason she gave me in the end...
left my whole life just to sway....
I was sailing over a desolate sea,
to a lonely place i wanted to flee....
My thoughts were with me and i nowhere,
it was just god to listen to my plea....
He gave me a reason to live, 
he gave me reason for smiles...
it was just you, n just you...
for whom i returned from miles....
I'll be for you, just for you all....
I have made a promise, till my last breath fall...
will not be able to see you in place of me..
and the experiences I past..
and thats why i fear for you..
n will do it till I last...........

" jus thoughts..... "

Broken into something,

admirable or whatsoever, 

doesn't matters....

Like the pieces of glass,

reflecting the incident legacy...

and it was just a memory.

Like the dew drops on a dry leaf...

Waves touching the feet of shore,

but yet far away..

Water pouring over the sand,

and evn then not wetting it..

Is it all because , I LOVED YOU,

or is it all coz........

Whatever, now i have to live it...

ANYHOW!!!!

"MY LYF..."

      with a pure heart,
                           i gave ur frnshp a start......
       In depths of my plight,
                          ur words gav strength to fight...
       Your words alwys eroded my tears,
                           and gav courage to withstand all my fears...
   why i never denied??? why i always followed??
       purpose was neither to
                         impress......
                            nor to
                                       lure,
                                          but a strong trust that always endure.....
        Your truthful soul always conquered my heart,
                          ur honest frnshp was d best part......
         However harsh you may appear,
                          I experienced ur innocence that's why u r so dear.....
         When all alone, things were hard to cope,
                          none was beside and u were d only hope...
         We met was a mare game of destiny,
                         but i always found u as d best company......
         I WISH v could move on together forever,
                         cause your friendship is so special that i can't forget it EVER..... :)

"I saw You"

n there i saw u, waiting fr me...
n there i found u so innocent...
n then i moved on against the stream...
n then i found what it meant.....
to be in love, to be some1's dream....
...
....

"From Sadness To Serenity"

There I walked on the lonely road, a road where there was no trail...
A new world for me to explore, and no one there fr solace..
I went on with all my dreams, without even a single word..
so much to share, so much to say... but no one with me all my way..
But I was high, head towards sky..
eyes full of dreams and ready to fly...
And then you came like breeze... just for me...oh!!! say na plz...
I liked your presence, and loved your smile,
you made me laugh no matter just for a while...
We smiled, we laughed....we cried and coughed....
a feeling of respect a feeling of care..
so much to say, so much to share..
But no words to explain, and my senses to refrain..
I lost myself in this world, just like a free flying bird..
So serene so peaceful is your company...
just wish to be with u forever n ever......